I just want.

I just want to know what I need.
The heart
wants
what it
wants.

But my hearts gotten me into so much trouble already.
Is this still what I need? Something light, something easy to handle?
Because it doesn't feel that way lately.
I don't want to be comparing them to each other
But I spent 9 months feeling this way;
9 months of no pictures because of drama
9 months being happy together and a mess apart.
9 months pushing thoughts out and letting nothing in.
9 months, being in love, alone.

I will never push you to tell me anything you don't mean,
but I need to know; what is this going to be for you?