so what's the plan?
where do we go from here?
Listen, fuck left and right, up or down.
We can go anywhere we want, do you hear what I'm saying?
Should I speak up because no one is moving,
I can't even hear breathing, no heart beats pounding beneath what we think we are.
what the fuck is going on?
c'mon C'MON let's go, let's FUCKING go.

I can never listen to what I tell myself.

Why the fuck are you just sitting there?
You're miserable, so is the rest of the world. So many people have it so much worse than you. Realize it.
I don't understand what happened to you, you used to stand up
stand up and scream!
WHY AREN'T YOU ANGRY, DON'T YOU FEEL WHAT I'M FEELING, DOES ANYONE FUCKING FEEL THIS?!

Maybe we don't all have something bigger and better waiting for us.
Maybe some of us just work and try and breakdown and get back up and work and try and breakdown and get back and work and try and breakdown breakdown breakdown
for no reason.
I can't tell if everyone here, has a purpose, a calling, a friend or a lover in the world.
Is it possible that we're taking each breath in and letting each breath out, to do only that for the rest of our lives?
We've got to try and leave a mark on this earth just so people can know
"hey I was here and I was alive and I was loved"
but how do you do that?
How do you change the way people think about you when all you've done so far is work and try and breakdown and get back up and work and try and breakdown and get back and work and try and breakdown breakdown breakdown.

I don't think I'll ever be anyone else than
"little hennegan" "Meaghan's sister" "Brendan's sister" "Tim's daughter"
It's fucking stupid.
I can't tell if there is more for me out there, I haven't been around the world, but how far do you have to go to gain the wisdom you need to truly LIVE.
I've got a soul and a heart and a brain.
I've got fire inside, it's burning everything, it's all mine.
So with this I am wise, but I am young.
I am UN-recognizably fucked up.