The second I turned away from the car I missed them.
I was standing alone at the four corners.
I don't know why but I started to cry, right there.
I didn't care how many people were sitting in the cars around me,
I was still all by myself.
Two motorcycles pulled up,
I couldn't stand being beside them,
I can't stand the popping of the engines.
I ran across the street, I ran all the up to the bus stop.
I had to slow down, catch my breath
I didn't though,
I kept running and running until I hit Westgate.
The pain in my side is the only thing that stopped me,
The car was already out front when I turned on the road for Annie's house.
I ran inside, grabbed my shit, took a deep breath and left.

The car ride was silent.
I watched the street lights repeat the same shadow
Over and over and over over and over.
I though about what I'm going to do.
I know it's not the right thing, I can never do the right thing.
I missed nick, simply because I wanted to be able to call him and just talk to him,
cry and feel okay about it.
I feel like shit.
It's always the point where everything is looking up,
I can see the sunrise peeking over the mountain
and then it gets dark again.
I'm back at the bottom and the sun has gone down.