Nothing makes sense now
I honestly don't even know how to explain any of this.
Everything feels trapped.
I don't give a fuck if this wasn't IT,
this was fucking something and it fucking hurts.

I wanted to tell you so much when you left
but I was concentrating on your face
your eyes
your hands
your lips
I wanted to get lost in you one more time.
It was always enough just to be quiet with you...

I wish I never met you.
I wish I had known you were this special and just fucked off.

The lack of you is hitting me hard.