in the bright lights

I remember kissing on every street corner in the rain with you
making wishes on the weeds that grew in the grass
getting tangled up and falling all over the place
pulling each other aside from the rest of the world for a a little while,
and a little while longer.
I remember drunken cartwheels in the middle of winter,
and when you lent me you scarf when I was cold.
you sneaking up on me when I was sitting in the statue.
I remember everything from the first day I met you,
until we said good bye at the airport.

Saturday night I really though I was going to be miserable without you,
exploring the city without you beside me,
giving me kisses in the bright lights and in between the shadows.
but instead I remember writing in my phone notepad
(so that I really would NOT forget this.)
"I'm thinking about him and all I can feel is happiness. no matter how far, he's here with us anyway"

Now in my state of mind, this made sense, believe you me.
I can't feel that way all the time, it just doesn't work that way.
I miss falling asleep beside you in your chair, on your couch, in your bed.
But I think the fact that I could feel this way for even a little while,
is a good start in a long process.

I'm still not seeing the beauty in everything,
but it's helping that I can think of you and smile sometimes, instead of cry.
<3